SADLY

I wish one day I could love someone that would love me back
Or someone would love me that I actually might love back
Guess we're living in a world somethings are not meant to be
It is true, sadly...

JADED

I've run out of the energy
The strength of moving on
I was a lot more optimistic than this
But now that old me is gone

With the sunrise everything cleared
Lifes true colors suddenly appeared
At that moment, when the most I needed it
Noone was there, so I became jaded

At that moment, I stopped caring
Ignored the fire that was flaring
But life already took a lot from me
Yeah, I guess it's too late for me...

Oh well...

BECAUSE I KNOW

A new chapter in my life is beginning
I'm not afraid though it's terrifying
Because I know if I don't let go
Things will turn out the way I want 'em to so

I'm in a new place that I don't know of
But I'm trying not to keep my expectations low
Because I know if I try to do my best
I'll eventually manage to fit in with the rest
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I've transferred to another school this year and I don't know anyone around me. Guess I wanted to comfort myself a bit when I wrote it.

FIT IN

I got the news off guard today
The smile on my face was washed away
But I thought, I'm a human-being
There is no situation we can't fit in
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I wrote this one today, when I found out that my school's opening this week instead of the next. Damn it!

THINGS'LL BE JUST FINE

Woke up with a collapse this morning
And not familiar with the path I'm following
But at night I see the stars are glowing
That's how I know things'll be just fine

Don't know of the language I'm speaking
Don't understand the voices I'm hearing
But I see the sun is brightly shining
That's how I know thing'll be just fine

Don't recognise the faces I'm seeing
Don't know of the point that I'm standing
But I see the picture that you're smiling
That's how I know things'll be just fine

As long as you are here and mine
Things'll be just fine...

SAVE ME

In this dark corner I seek
Someone to lead
Me out of this place
Into somewhere full of mercy and grace

I've run out on a limb
In this world named thing
I've only got one hope now
For someone to save me somehow

We'll see
If someone will save me...

ALONE IN TIME

Every 24 hours of my life
Just slip away out of my hands
Invisible to see as it passes by
Impossible to stop it from passing so fast

In the depths of the endless darkness
Distant voices and mindless violence
I feel more and more alone
With the unbreakable silence

MY PAIN

The fickle air conditions are here
The darkening rains are near
Though I may seem happy
I'm sad, don't be surprised with me

The rains were here throughout the day
Don't expect the rainbow to show at bay
Because the sun is crying with the rain
It may not appear because of the pain

If the sun is me and rain my tears
Rainbow my joy, along with my fears
It seems like a possibility so far
But maybe you'll understand who you are...?

IF I WASN'T

I think of all the painful ends I've planned for you
I want to choke you
Seeing from your eyes that you're wasting away
Your silent struggling will satisfy me
And then you'll be gone
I won't do that
But I would if I wasn't still in love with you

I think of all the painful ends I've planned for you
I want to push you in front of a car
Seeing from your eyes that you are afraid
Your fear will satisfy me
And then, crash!
I won't do that
But I would if I wasn't still in love with you

I think of all the painful ends I've planned for you
I want to slice you
Seeing from your eyes that you are suffering
Your pain will satisfy me
And then blood everywhere
I won't do that
But I would if I wasn't still in love with you

I think of all the painful ends I've planned for you
I want to push you off a cliff
Seeing from your eyes that you know the end is near
Your screams will satisfy me
And then, splat!
I won't do that
But I would if I wasn't still in love with you

Yeah, you see,
That's what you did to me
And you still don't care!
I'd get back at you
Only if I wasn't still in love with you!

But that day will come...

PLEASE...

Please...
If it's cloudly, don't push it
It might rain
And when it does rain
Please...
Let the sun shine
It's mandatory for the rainbow to appear again
If it's windy
Please...
Walk in that direction
If it's draught
Just a bit of affection
And it will be all bright and still again