TOO RECKLESS

I have come to a point in this life
That nothing I do or see feels right
Nothing left that I can hold on tight
So easy to go without a fight
But don’t let go of that smile
Me and my being may be hostiles
But I’m too reckless to commit suicide
So I’ll be here for a while

Everything I hear around bugs me
People's believes and their philosophy
I don't care what they believe in really
It's just the way they point them out to me
But don't let go of that smile
I may want to kick their asses real hard
But I'm too reckless to respond
So I'll be here for a while

The attitude I get is just sickening
The hate I feel inside is just amazing
I have already stopped caring
Now it's time to do something daring
But don't let go of that smile
I may hate being here right now
But I'm too reckless to say goodbye
So I'll be here for a while

The salvation comes closer to me
I can feel it as if it's right above me
Where I can leave everything behind
Without even being sorry
But don't let go of that smile
I may be dying to get out of here
But I'm too reckless to reach out
So I'll be here for a while

Don't you worry about me
I'm the one that will be
Standing by your side
Because I'm too reckless to leave
At least for a while

WON'T SAY ANYTHING

I have so much piled up in me
Eagerly waiting for an enormous blast
To drop the mask I wear for eternity
But I won't say anything

I feel everything is mixed up in a solution
Anger, hurt and all of the disappointments
Want them to know it's not a period of transition
But I won't say anything

What if everything I say will come out wrong?
Rather than opening up who I really am...
I want to take this chance at fixing myself
But I won't say anything

As I kill myself inside very slowly
I want them to think I'm doing alright
To avoid worries and to preserve my invisibility
I won't say anything

WHAT THE HELL

I can't believe I've done it again
Rattled the cages at the silliest time
To cave everything in
And blur things that made sense to me
I ask myself "What the hell?"

Like as if it wasn't enough
Burning the candle at both ends
I watched as my dreams too get haunted
Just can't learn these ain't fun stuff
I ask myself "What the hell?"

My Blood Rose

I spent some time changing the picture a bit on PhotoShop. I actually drew it by hand, but it looks way better this way. Hope you like it.

SAVE YOU

I want to save you
From all of your nightmares
It hurts to see you suffer

I want to save you
Release you from the haunting of your ghosts
Seeing you hurt kills me the most

I know you can't save me
But I need to save you
Saving you will save me

So please let me save you

Touché

I think I've ruined my life
By thinking of you all the time
But then I go ahead and think
How much of a life can it be
If the one you love isn't in it?

ON A LONG WALK

I've got nothing this morning
Nothing to do, nothing to say
I just walk in a great silence
Hoping the wind to take me away

The sun has just come up
I feel the chilly breeze on my cheeks
Taking the tears away from me
Knowing no one will understand how it feels

As being the one that's stuck
In the middle now
I'm on a long walk

I DON'T WANT TO

I don't want to be
The one that steps aside
Leaves deeds to other hands
To avoid the incoming tide
The one that no one knows about

I don't want to wait
For the chances to come to me
As others flow right past me
Being too scared to reach out
Rather than to seek them out

I want to do things
Without having doubts
And be the one that looks back
And feels nothing
But proud

I don't want to turn out
To be the one that's forgotten
Because I was left out
Of pure fear and timidity
And end up being vain and rotten

I don't ever want to be
And I won't be...

MISERY

The snow falls down
Covers all over the city
But it can't cover up my pain
The sadness I feel inside me

It is raining outside
Washing away all the dirt
But it doesn't take everything away
It can't undo how I'm hurt

The sun's coming out
Lights everything around
But it can't show my agony
In this darkness, how I drown

I WILL NOT CRY

I will not cry
If I can't make it
Because I know that I tried

I will not cry
If I get rejected
Because I'm not the best

I will not cry
If I come back empty-handed
There will be other things in my life

I will not cry
I know I'll brake this vow
If I'm left out in the middle
Please don't leave me behind
Then I can promise
I will not cry