RESERVED

I climb a long way up
And fall for you all over again
All it takes is five minutes with you
And I'm again trapped in your blue

There is no turning back now
Most of my heart is reserved for you
Even if you don't allow

JUST A LITTLE BIT

What would be different if I disappeared?
Would my absence ever have appeared?
Who would have called out my name
Hoping that I would respond to it?
Would I be missed
For even just a little bit?

No hand is there to reach out for me
No matter how much I cry out for help
As all my dreams turned to nightmares
I was left alone without a doubt
Do I make a difference
For even just a little bit?

NO MORE WORDS

Awake at night here I lie
And I can't help but wonder why
How I ended up in this situation
And how I lost my intuition

Things got mixed up in a moment
Won't matter whether I'm here or absent
Words undoable has been said
My enthusiasm winded up dead

Because that's what you're good at
Making promises you never could've kept
Leaving me to my own misery
And pretending that I wasn't worthy

Go ahead, deny
I don't care
And I won't ask why
Because I know you too damn well
With a hypocrite I dwell
No more words left to tell

MY PLACE

I've been here, I've been there
Been to almost everywhere
And I can't find my place
I don't belong anywhere

HIDE

Distractions they do not allow
Can never forget it then and now
Not allowed to even mask the pain
Can not run away to self sustain

It's there no matter where I am
To follow me anywhere like spam
There is nowhere left to hide
All my attempts have been denied

My agony is to its full extent
It has become my regular torment
Living with it is now a part of me
Destroying my being is life's spree

OVERLAP

I'm forced to walk this path alone till it's the end
That's the one rule of my life's law I can not bend
Nothing will change along the way, I can not pretend
Even though it was the one single thing I wish I had

Dreams and reality don't overlap sometimes..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

I wrote this one for you today
Enjoy this day in any way
Because this is your big day
Let nothing stand in your way

Happy Birthday!
___________
For my dear Replica.

SHOULD KNOW BETTER

You're always keeping me hanging on
Playing with me as if I'm a toy
You destroy me, then expect me to go on
Leave me trapped in my personal decoy

I'm not mad at you
I should know better
But I never do

Breaking bad news to me indirectly
As if you are too afraid to face me
Just tell me if you don't want me
I'd at least appreciate your honesty

I'm not mad at you
I should know better
But I never do

BLOCKED

A paper full of words in front of me
I can't seem to put them together orderly
But my system is still working
I'm one step away from resolving

I keep wandering around like a maniac
Trying to find the inspiration that I lack
Something else is blocking me to a degree
I can't find it while you're staring at me!

What are you looking at?
I may be the blocked kid
But make no mistake
I can kick ass even with it

PHOTON GIRLS

Brighting up wherever you go
Bring me up when I'm feeling low
Warming up my left for dead soul
You are the photon girls!
I shall never let you go

Ever so full of brilliance energy
Some may not understand you maybe
But you're the ones that hold the key
You are the photon girls!
Don't let nothing stand in your way
______________________________
For my December girls. You know who you are. <3