WHAT THE HELL

I can't believe I've done it again
Rattled the cages at the silliest time
To cave everything in
And blur things that made sense to me
I ask myself "What the hell?"

Like as if it wasn't enough
Burning the candle at both ends
I watched as my dreams too get haunted
Just can't learn these ain't fun stuff
I ask myself "What the hell?"

My Blood Rose

I spent some time changing the picture a bit on PhotoShop. I actually drew it by hand, but it looks way better this way. Hope you like it.

SAVE YOU

I want to save you
From all of your nightmares
It hurts to see you suffer

I want to save you
Release you from the haunting of your ghosts
Seeing you hurt kills me the most

I know you can't save me
But I need to save you
Saving you will save me

So please let me save you

Touché

I think I've ruined my life
By thinking of you all the time
But then I go ahead and think
How much of a life can it be
If the one you love isn't in it?

ON A LONG WALK

I've got nothing this morning
Nothing to do, nothing to say
I just walk in a great silence
Hoping the wind to take me away

The sun has just come up
I feel the chilly breeze on my cheeks
Taking the tears away from me
Knowing no one will understand how it feels

As being the one that's stuck
In the middle now
I'm on a long walk

I DON'T WANT TO

I don't want to be
The one that steps aside
Leaves deeds to other hands
To avoid the incoming tide
The one that no one knows about

I don't want to wait
For the chances to come to me
As others flow right past me
Being too scared to reach out
Rather than to seek them out

I want to do things
Without having doubts
And be the one that looks back
And feels nothing
But proud

I don't want to turn out
To be the one that's forgotten
Because I was left out
Of pure fear and timidity
And end up being vain and rotten

I don't ever want to be
And I won't be...

MISERY

The snow falls down
Covers all over the city
But it can't cover up my pain
The sadness I feel inside me

It is raining outside
Washing away all the dirt
But it doesn't take everything away
It can't undo how I'm hurt

The sun's coming out
Lights everything around
But it can't show my agony
In this darkness, how I drown

I WILL NOT CRY

I will not cry
If I can't make it
Because I know that I tried

I will not cry
If I get rejected
Because I'm not the best

I will not cry
If I come back empty-handed
There will be other things in my life

I will not cry
I know I'll brake this vow
If I'm left out in the middle
Please don't leave me behind
Then I can promise
I will not cry

I'M AFRAID

I'm afraid
Of the hesitations I'm having
What I'll miss if I can't get passed them
Afraid of maybe being sorry forever
If I can't build up enough courage
To do something
But I'm also afraid
Of going ahead and doing
What I wanted to do for a long time
But at the end
Just failing
And regreting ever having wanting
I'm afraid
Of being this weak
Not strong enough for holding on
Bearing a big difference
And not being sure I'll survive
I'm afraid of myself
I'm afraid

NOTHING SPECIAL

Nothing special
Just here to tell that I'm going
And not coming back
At least until the dawn
When you understand what you lack

Nothing special
Just here to express my hate
And how I loathe
To show what you take
And just how much you've sunk low

Nothing special
Just here to show my broken heart
And how you broke it
Took all the self-esteem I've got
Without even feeling sorry for it

Nothing special
I've always felt these for you
It's sad but you know it's true
This is what you've made of me
My agony
And how I can never stop hating you
Just wanted to tell you these
And nothing special