EXPECTATIONS

Don't get my hopes up
Let me fly a bit low
I'm tired of crashing
On the hard ground below

When I get close to a dream
Let the idea sink in
Because anything can happen
I don't want to be disappointed again
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It's not a new one, started writing it at the beginning of August but only now managed to finish it. Enjoy.

Two-Laned Road

My life is like a two-laned road from nowhere and to nowhere. The right lane consists of my dreams, it's the place I really belong to. But nothing there truly exists. And despite this, it's the one that takes me forward. The left one is the life I try to sustain, it's made up of things that are real alright, but they only cause my regression and take me away from everything that I stand for. Between those lanes, stands a high wall. I can make it through it, but I'm either on the right, or I'm on the left. I either get lost in a world that I created only of my very own hopes and dreams that I can only reach out to but can never have, or I go back to reality on the left side of the road, where I feel ever so lonely and can only have everything that doesn't mean anything to me. My purpose along the way was always to find a way to unite those lanes into one. One lane that moves only forward and consists of everything that I dreamed of and that everything I can get to have. That wall had to go down, it's been always about taking that wall down. I've been searching for a weak spot on that wall my whole life.. But finally, at the end, I realized something.. There isn't a road with two lanes that has a wall between them to have weak spots on so that I can take it down in real life. There is only time and that has been against us from the very beginning, never stopping to pass by, taking us to the inevitable, whether we like it or not.
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It's just me babbling along, thought "Why let it go to waste, I'll just put it up!". I have a weird way of seeing life, I know, you don't have to tell me. :P Enjoy.

GONE & MISSING

I lost a good poem last night
Because I was too lazy to get up
Now I'll forever wonder what
It was that slipped my mind
And will always remain gone

I woke up curious this morning
Tried to remember what I was thinking
When I was inspired but wasn't writing
I'll never recollect it again I believe
And it will always remain missing
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Based on a true story. xD

(Plus.. My 100th poem up here!!!! *happy*)

A DYING FLAME

Don't let the flame of our love die

That's the only thing keeping us alive
I don't wanna lose what we became
And left only with a dying flame

I thought the verse fit in with the picture, so I thought I post them at the same time. You know, two birds with one stone. ^^ Enjoy.

MY HILL OF SOLITUDE

As no one is there to hear me
Where the wind blows in the face
And the leaves rustle gently
I'm upon my hill of solitude
When nothing goes the way it should

When no one else is there to see me
Where I lay on the sere leaves
And the night comes down quietly
I'm upon my hill of solitude
When I feel I'm misunderstood

Don't you worry about me
I may never come down again
But I'll always feel happy
Upon my hill of solitude

SQUARE ONE

Three days until I die again
To go through the same old pain
To cry with the fall's grey rain
And to be reminded of, once again
That I'm stuck
With the unbreakable chain

Two days until I die again
As my dreams go down the drain
To end up walking on the same lane
And to see that, once again
There really is nothing
From life that I can gain

One day until I die again
To spend another year in vain
Integrating into one single decayed grain
Saying my last amen
Though there really isn't anything
That I actually believe in

I have no days left
Back to square one again