MISERY

The snow falls down
Covers all over the city
But it can't cover up my pain
The sadness I feel inside me

It is raining outside
Washing away all the dirt
But it doesn't take everything away
It can't undo how I'm hurt

The sun's coming out
Lights everything around
But it can't show my agony
In this darkness, how I drown

I WILL NOT CRY

I will not cry
If I can't make it
Because I know that I tried

I will not cry
If I get rejected
Because I'm not the best

I will not cry
If I come back empty-handed
There will be other things in my life

I will not cry
I know I'll brake this vow
If I'm left out in the middle
Please don't leave me behind
Then I can promise
I will not cry

I'M AFRAID

I'm afraid
Of the hesitations I'm having
What I'll miss if I can't get passed them
Afraid of maybe being sorry forever
If I can't build up enough courage
To do something
But I'm also afraid
Of going ahead and doing
What I wanted to do for a long time
But at the end
Just failing
And regreting ever having wanting
I'm afraid
Of being this weak
Not strong enough for holding on
Bearing a big difference
And not being sure I'll survive
I'm afraid of myself
I'm afraid

NOTHING SPECIAL

Nothing special
Just here to tell that I'm going
And not coming back
At least until the dawn
When you understand what you lack

Nothing special
Just here to express my hate
And how I loathe
To show what you take
And just how much you've sunk low

Nothing special
Just here to show my broken heart
And how you broke it
Took all the self-esteem I've got
Without even feeling sorry for it

Nothing special
I've always felt these for you
It's sad but you know it's true
This is what you've made of me
My agony
And how I can never stop hating you
Just wanted to tell you these
And nothing special